Many, many years ago...okay, not so many because at only 23 I have so much more to see and experience and to learn. Many might disagree but I believe this to be true. That I laugh more than 20 times a day and that is ten times more life added to my life span. I used to think that life could not get any better. I had a roof over my head, I had a warm bed everyday and hot food every evening even though sometimes I really did not feel like eating. I had a great boyfriend with whom I believed that I could never have had such a beautiful person in my life, he was my air. (rather, I felt very miserable when he was away and I believed I would die if he was not in my life). That was the kind of person I was. Always happy, always bubbly.
If anyone would have t old me months later that he and I would no longer be together, I would not have believed the person. But on a fateful day May 2 it was, my world as I knew it was shattered to pieces. I believed that I was done. See, the thing is, I never had a plan B. You know, if A goes wrong, you have something planned that will not get you down. I didn't have that. All I knew was him. All I believed is him. I went berserk, I was furious, I was confused, I was bitter, I was angry. It took me a whole month to get my head screwed on straight.
After a while, things got better, I got stronger, I became able. I got the hang of it and my life as I know it was glorious. Marriage is overrated sometimes. But then again life is never that easy. Sometimes life does a creepy crawlie on you. But I tell you people, fall in love, fall deep in love. It is the greatest thing. Whether you have been beaten and are scared to get back in the game, whether your last person hurt you so bad that you vowed never to get involved again, whether you felt that life can never go on or whether you are very sceptical about your next involvement, move on, get on that bike and ride like you can ride into the sunset.
Love is a beautiful thing. When you have a bad day and you go home and you see his smile, when you are angry and you talk to him, when you get down on the table to eat together, when you look deep into his eyes and see your future, nothing can take away that feeling. You feel like you are all alone surrounded by beautiful things that have made the time stand still.
Its in your mind and makes you tingle with great pleasure love does strange things, but it can never break your spirit.
If anyone would have t old me months later that he and I would no longer be together, I would not have believed the person. But on a fateful day May 2 it was, my world as I knew it was shattered to pieces. I believed that I was done. See, the thing is, I never had a plan B. You know, if A goes wrong, you have something planned that will not get you down. I didn't have that. All I knew was him. All I believed is him. I went berserk, I was furious, I was confused, I was bitter, I was angry. It took me a whole month to get my head screwed on straight.
After a while, things got better, I got stronger, I became able. I got the hang of it and my life as I know it was glorious. Marriage is overrated sometimes. But then again life is never that easy. Sometimes life does a creepy crawlie on you. But I tell you people, fall in love, fall deep in love. It is the greatest thing. Whether you have been beaten and are scared to get back in the game, whether your last person hurt you so bad that you vowed never to get involved again, whether you felt that life can never go on or whether you are very sceptical about your next involvement, move on, get on that bike and ride like you can ride into the sunset.
Love is a beautiful thing. When you have a bad day and you go home and you see his smile, when you are angry and you talk to him, when you get down on the table to eat together, when you look deep into his eyes and see your future, nothing can take away that feeling. You feel like you are all alone surrounded by beautiful things that have made the time stand still.
Its in your mind and makes you tingle with great pleasure love does strange things, but it can never break your spirit.
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