A curve ball is a ball that is pitched with a snap of the wrist and a strong downward spin, which causes the ball to drop suddenly and deceptively veer... and in life a curve-ball is when things happen so fast in your life that it causes you to get confused and start viewing it from a different angle. Most of us go through this in our daily lives and for some of us who can handle the pressure, we do so effortlessly and gracefully. For others, we choose to commit suicide, an easier way out. Others as yet suffer a nervous breakdown and what do you know...they go mental. And life has its ways of dealing us these curve-balls. Now, depending on how well you handle the pressure and pull it out we still have to stand firm and smile like nothing has happened. Right...there is the smile I want.
Recently I learnt that not all that glitters is gold, it glitters, it is golden but it is not gold. And if it glitters... I have many acquaintances few friends and even fewer very close friends. Yes, that is how my life is and as of now, my life is very complicated. I love my life and cannot change anything about it. I didn't understand how a man or woman can fall in love twice. I am a believer that if you fall in love once it is with one person, if that person hurts you, you can never fall in love again. Yes, that's me.
A few months ago, I fell in love again. How did I know? I just knew
Loving him came easy, he made time for me, I love the way he talks, and smiles, I see myself having his children despite the fact that I had said I will not have children. He made me so annoyed yet I still wanted to try and make him happy, he respects me, he loves me and he tells me the truth. There is a saying that "bad taste is when you are about to tell a close friend the BITTER truth." I am as bad an adviser as there can ever be in this lifetime and the next. I am a good listener but I cannot and choose not to and prefer never to give advice to anyone. I believe that you should make your own decisions. This one came easy to me. I want him and like an ogre with his beast...(I hope) nothing will keep me away from him.
And recently, as much as I can easily analyse someone's character, I was lacking in that talent when I hooked up. Yeah,he was my friend, once in a while escapades, I was all about the fun and laughter and about only the good things in life. There is a song that sings "Wise men said, only fools rush in". It took me over 5 years to realize that I am in love with this guy and now that I know, I am on cloud 9. Yet...there is a curve-ball. A spinning, fast curve-ball. I waited too long.
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